Oh yeah, this would be one of the major spoiler scenes. This scene happens after Bou-san goes through outlining the mysteries, weirdnesses, and conclusions about Naru. Naru leaves, Lin talks with the others for a bit, and then...
Outside was, as always, very bright with all that sunshine.
After that, I used the opportunity when Lin followed Naru outside to go for a walk in the forest on my own. Even though it was still so bright, the evening cicadas were starting to sing. Their voices were so lonely it made me feel depressed. I had the feeling that something that'd been bothering me sank in my chest.
I didn't entirely understand what that was and it made me more and more depressed.
......I'm depressed. I wonder why.
I should be more cheerful. After all, I finally found out about something that'd been bothering me for so long.
.....I wonder what's bothering me so much.
I thought that as I wandered through the forest when I saw a figure in front of me. He was there leaning against a tree.
As soon as I saw him, I realised.
I see, I......
"I thought you went to look at the lake," as I spoke to him, those dark eyes that'd been watching me looked away. Perhaps it's because of the light, but it seemed like his expression was a little clouded.
"......That's right," I muttered and walked to where Naru was leaning against the tree.
"I'm sorry. Calling you "Naru-chan" unthinkingly like that all the time."
The eyes that turned to look at me really were very deep.
"That was the name only your older brother called you by, right? I didn't understand the circumstances at all......"
Although Lin-san also called him that now, so it probably wasn't such a private name anymore.
"That's when we were really small."
I leaned against the opposite side of the slim tree Naru was leaning against.
"You're a really important person, huh?"
There was no response to my comment.
"Somehow, that feeling of distance, or...... Heheh, no wonder you kept calling me stupid all the time. Compared to you, I really am stupid."
......No doubt this is the reason why I'm down.
"You're going back to England soon, huh?"
That's where his family was and where his life was.
"And you'll be going back to the life you were living before you met us. ......I can't imagine what that life was like at all. After all, the worlds we live in are completely different."
"It's not like that."
"Really? I wonder......"
"Just an idiot scientist after all."
It's the first time Naru ever talked about himself like that so I couldn't helped turning and looking at the person behind me. I could see his back separated by the slim tree.
I soon looked ahead again.
"You're also an orphan, eh?"
"Circumstances were different from yours. ......I had a brother and adoptive parents."
"I see. ......What's your older brother like?"
......He won't tell me after all, huh?
"I'm glad I ran into you. I wanted to apologise too," as I said that, a quiet voice came from behind.
"I was looking for you."
"There's something I wanted to tell you, so I was hoping I'd see you."
From behind, I could only hear his voice.
"......We might never see each other again, so there's something I wanted to tell you, but......"
"I think I won't......"
You're kidding, I muttered in my mind. Leaving me hanging. Tell me. I turned to look behind when I heard footsteps in the brush. And thanks to that, I unthinkingly looked towards that sound.
I felt my mind go blank for a moment. Quickly remembering myself, I turned to look behind. There was no longer anyone there.
--There's no way he'd be there. After all, that person was coming towards me fifteen degree off of straight ahead.
Exactly as the saying goes, I felt like the fox'd played a trick on me.
The person approaching 15 degrees off of straight ahead stopped.
Black hair and black eyes. A figure all in black.
He looked at me questioningly. I'm the one who's confused.
"You're really Naru, right......?"
"What are you saying? Are you awake?"
"Yeah...... I'm not sure."
Why? What happened?
"--Who was it that was here until just a moment ago?"
Naru cocked his head slightly at my murmured words.
"Someone was here?"
I pointed behind me where no one was to be seen any more.
"You. I was talking to you until just now. I'm sure."
That's right. That wasn't a dream. I'm not so capable that I can sleep while standing.
"Right next to me. What... was that?"
"You were out of it."
I became angry at the open contempt in his voice.
"I was not! It was like one of those dreams but that was definitely not a dream!"
Naru took one step closer.
"What do you mean?"
Naru's serious expression. I couldn't try to laugh it off.
"I-it's just a dream......"
He took another step closer. If I reached out, I would be able to touch him; that's how little space was between us now. The slim trunk was at my back as always, so it felt like I was being cornered.
"Like I said, what sort?"
"It doesn't concern you."
"It doesn't sound like it doesn't concern me?"
The colour of his eyes was so deep. And on top of that they seemed very forbidding.
"You mean I was there?"
"I-it doesn't concern you, right?"
"I don't see it not concerning me."
"There's no need to pry so much."
"There's no need to hide it so much either,right?"
"I'm not hid--......"
......Argh! I'll tell him already! After all, there's no later for it. I'll feel better for him laughing at me and my hitting him for it.
"Dreams...... about you!"
......I said it......
Even I could tell my face was bright red. And yet, and yet, he just looked confused. This bloody stick-in-the-mud!
"Yeah. You. They're just my own dreams. Maybe my wishful thinking. Dreams of a nice Naru."
Although the real you isn't the least bit nice, but that's the very sarcastic unspoken comment in there.
"Right. You're smiling so gently. And you even speak to me nicely."
There's absolutely no way I'll accept that it's your subconscious.
Naru stared at me wide-eyed.
"......And we were talking until now?"
"That's right. You have a problem with that?"
I wonder why I'm bracing so much for a fight.
"Nothing much. It was just a daydream. --Naturally, it was a dream. Someone doesn't smile at all, not to mention someone wouldn't take part in pointless conversation. And there's no way you'd be looking for me unless you wanted something done."
I'm completely confessing my feelings, aren't I? Hahahah.
Now go ahead and laugh all you like. My right hand's ready to come flying out to hit you. A brazen, cold-blooded guy like you, no doubt you won't understand my young girl's heart."
"......What do you mean by that?"
It looked like Naru was stunned.
I couldn't help being exasperated by his question.
What did I mean? Isn't it obvious? Why do you think I'd be hiding the fact that he'd been showing up in my dreams up until now?
"Are you stupid?! You don't get it?!"
"I don't understand"
Aaaahhhhh, he pisses me off!
"Yeah, I'm sure! I did know it. That you're a cold-blood guy without blood or tears in you. But even so, isn't it human nature to think that somewhere completely unseen there's a bit of niceness somewhere. What with you always showed up in my dreams, and always smiled, and on top of that always being so nice, like you were actually paying attention to me. No doubt that's all just my own wishful thinking. But even so, having those sorts of dreams, I can't help thinking that maybe deep down you actually do have blood and tears in you. And if that continues, it's a girl's heart to think that maybe your slipping out in spirit to come see me!"
Now--maybe that thick head of yours got it this time.
"......I can't do astral travel."
"I can't do that. I don't have that ability."
"I know. No doubt, that's the case. It's just my wishful thinking."
"If you want to laugh, then why don't you...... Eh?"
I came back to myself. The pale face of the person I was yelling at was bloodless.
"When...... did that start?"
I couldn't help being baffled.
"Since when? You mean the dreams? From the very start......"
"......It's not me."
"That's not me. ......It's Gene......"
He raised his pale hand to his forehead like he was fighting dizziness.
"Wr-wrong! It doesn't matter that your brothers, I'd know! That was definitely you!"
"No. It's Gene."
There's no way I'd be mistaken. Because it's about Naru.
"If we were expressionless, no one could tell us apart. --He's my older twin brother."
"Then...... Gene's still been wandering in this world......"
It looked like Naru's gaze too, was lost in the distance.
"......Older brother? He was?"
In that case.
"That's...... your brother's......"
The various memories cracked falling apart.
--Why didn't I realise it?
When I think about it, it's so simple.
The Naru in my dreams smiles. Real world Naru doesn't.
--They were completely different people.
Their personalities, manners of speech, other than appearance, they were completely different people......!
There were definitely times when I felt like they were different people. And it's only natural. Because they really were different people. I just didn't realise it--
Because they looked the same.
Because they sounded the same.
And so I thought he was Naru.
"I wonder if he had unfinished business...... That must be it."
Naru's low voice was pained.
"......He said we might never see each other again."
Naru looked at me at my quiet comment.
"He said that earlier."
"Yeah. If we find his body......"
Naru closed his mouth after that.
There wasn't anything I could say to him either.
"Mai, there's something I wanted to ask you."
After a while Naru finally spoke.
"There's a time you had a vision of the past where you had your throat cut. Was there anything strange about it then?"
Naru looked like he was searching for the right words.
"I did psychometry on some small item in that mansion. A vase or stand, something like that. The vision I had was very similar to that."
"Even the fine details, they were virtually identical."
"......How's that possible?"
Naru shook his head slightly.
"I'll change the question a bit. What role did Eugene play in your dreams?"
"......I'm not sure, but he once told me he showed me the way to the dreams. Also, advice, and he taught me various things, too. This time your brother also taught me how to enter a trance."
"The method where you concentrate on your breathing and slowly relax your entire body?"
Naru sighed once.
"What is that idiot doing......"
Idiot. --Even towards his brother, Naru was Naru.
Even if it were only in name, for a medium to lose the way... And here I thought he'd long since gone over.
"I wonder if maybe he was worried about you."
I just had that feeling when I said it.
Naru frowned in disgust.
"I haven't fallen apart so much that he needs to worry about me."
--Meaning--Since he was able to be this guy's brother, without doubt, his brother's personality must have been incredibly wonderful.
"But? What's it mean?"
"In other words, that's why that idiot's presuming to be your guiding spirit. Most likely, you have innate spiritual ability. And he stayed with you expecting to draw out that ability. Sheesh."
If he's being spoken about like this, even his brother wouldn't be able move on.
"That method of entering a trance is also a method Gene often used. Seeing spirits as light, and seeing the surroundings as transparent is also a habit of his. And connecting the line on his own like that."
Naru really looked displeased.
"There was a hot line between Gene and I. A direct link between consciousnesses."
"It was completely useless with anyone else though. He relayed that to you. No wonder you ended up seeing the same vision."
"He should hurry up and go over to he other side already."
I could very much understand Naru's feelings on that and decided I'd no longer think of Naru as being cold-hearted. It'd be hard on me too if I found out that Mom or Dad were still here somewhere.
"He must've really been worried about you."
"He's being meddlesome."
"Now, now. With him gone, you no longer have a psychic who can see spirits, right? He managed to guide me into becoming useful."
He's a nice brother, isn't he. If you make light of him, something bad could happen.
"That sort of thing is called being kind."
"It's also called being stupid."
"Why did your brother come to Japan?"
For a moment I wondered if he might not answer my question.
"He was asked to summon a spirit. Since there are old-style mediums throughout the different areas, he was also going to look into those."
While it's a little late to realise it, his brother was a medium then. Not to mention a famous one.
"So your brother was also doing that sort of research."
"Did you ghost hunt together?"
It must have been frustrating for Naru on the investigations. Thinking "if his brother were there". After all, there are times when Masako can't see anything, and I'm a useless psychic. His brother would've been able to immediately grasp the situation and if there were any need, could get the other spirits to move on--.
I thought about the method he taught me to get spirits to move on. He dismissed it as "simple" so he must've been very kind and warm right to the core.
......And he died.
Even now, he's sleeping somewhere below the dam.
"Your brother...... um, how did you know he was here? Psychometry?"
"Is that absolute? It's never wrong?"
"......Would it be okay to ask how he died?"
Naru fell silent thinking. And then, "It was around halfway through his scheduled itinerary after Gene left for Japan. I borrowed some of his clothes when I suddenly synched with him."
"When you end up seeing things as the person in your vision when doing psychometry."
"You mean like the dream that time?"
Going through that countless times would be horrible. No wonder people would hate to do psychometry.
"All of a sudden? You didn't try to synch with him or anything?"
"That sort of intent isn't always necessary. Although breaking it requires will."
"The first thing I saw was a mountain, I think. A mountain in the afternoon, a road, and walking along that, I could hear a car approaching from behind. Turning around, I could see the car rounding the corner skid to the outside. It ran straight towards me, there was an impact, and then collapse. Lying there on the asphalt, a person came out of the car."
"It was a woman. Although I could only see from the knees down. She panicked, and after screaming, went back to her car. I soon heard the sound of the car moving again, and that came closer from behind......"
I choked back something sour. From that, that woman must have finished Gene off. Definitely...... you could say, he'd been killed......
"After that, the vision went green. That's what happens when the person in the vision dies. He was dragged along the ground and thrown into the trunk of the car. He was wrapped into a silver sheet somewhere that looked like a garage. And that was then thrown into a lake from a boat--."
"Getting into an accident in the first place was careless and stupid."
......He's talking like that again..... Honestly--.
"I hope you find him soon."
No doubt that's why he's been wandering about. Being this far away and never able to see his family again. Being all alone at the bottom of the cold lake.
......He probably wants to go home soon. To the place where he belongs.
Naru started to say something. Started to say something, but in the end he closed his mouth, and sighed instead.
It was then that I heard a voice from the distance.
"Geez, is this where you were?"
That was a woman's voice, but it wasn't Ayako, it wasn't Masako, but it was a voice that I definitely remembered hearing before.
Turning around, I could see a woman waving her arm in among the trees.
"My, Taniyama-san. How've you been?"
I remembered that bright smile.
The strange acquaintance of Lin-san's and Naru's that I'd met before.
lkk, sorry, I did misread a word there. You'll see. >.