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GH FF--Dreaming of You

April 19th, 2007 (12:00 pm)
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current mood: melancholy

*blink* How is it that after working on Kokumono and reading some of Romeo and Juliet (I have to be one of the minority that has never read this work--my teachers were all "you'll do this in HS / you'll have done this in JHS, so we'll do *** instead") until late at night, *this* is what comes to mind first thing in the morning as I wake up?? The really sad thing is that my memory's not so strong so as to be able to write things exactly as they were when they came to mind first thing by the time I actually sit down in front of my computer. >.> I admit, I prefer the version that came to mind as I woke up this morning. It was a bit longer and had more details, more little bits I wanted to add, but that version and the cohesion it had is lost in the mist. >.>

Oh, do I need to mention that this is post-novels and contains spoilers? Everything I've ever written has been that way so far. This would be the prequel to what's currently being written. ^^;



With the summer heat slowly letting up, the people of Tokyo were enjoying the milder temperatures that the end of summer and early autumn brought. And along with the more moderate heat, the milder humidity made evenings much more pleasant and enjoyable.

Shibuya ward's Dogensaka. Often, young people go to Shibuya to hang out and enjoy the shopping, but compared to weekends, school nights are much less crowded and easier to deal with. However, inside one second floor Shibuya office, a young lady sat sleeping at her desk. No one else was out in the reception area, and the office itself was utterly silent. The office only recently re-opened after the latest case had been solved, a case the girl--Taniyama Mai--had found to be much more emotionally difficult than expected.

Ever since her boss had come back, she couldn't help feeling like there was a little more distance lying between them compared to before. Perhaps it couldn't be helped. After all, there was everything she'd said at the lakeside. But then, she hadn't known why he'd been in Japan. She hadn't known who he was looking for. She hadn't seen.

The person in her dreams--the one she fell in love with. The person in reality--the one who showed her great kindness. The one who showed himself openly; the one who hid himself behind thorns. She hadn't seen either of them for who they really were. But then, she hadn't even realised they were two different people... until she was finally forced to confess the truth about her dreams.

Everyone had expected that the discovery of his body in the lake would mean he'd be able to move on from this world--that was the theory. However, when Mai met him once again in her dreams, she learned very differently. He'd always been able to see the way out but couldn't seem to get near it. And even he didn't know why that was the case.

But in seeing him again, she was finally able to call him by his own name and to see his wonderful smile again. She loved that smile. She loved him. And when she thought about it, in many ways he might well be the ideal person to love. So open, loving, and kind... and while there was no hope for anything between them, there was no fear of being rejected either. He'd always helped her, cheered her up, taught her so much... and he smiled for her. He once told her that getting spirits to move on from the world was very easy. But in learning how to do it herself, she realised he must have been an incredibly kind person to be able to say that. And he was dead.

But if he were to go completely, if he were to disappear... In the days following the Agawa case, Mai was forced to face the fact that she couldn't rely on Gene for everything all the time. But she also wondered how much of her ability was truly her own. And how much did she truly control? What if Gene was really keeping her abilities in check and under control? What if they were really Gene's abilities and he was making them seem like hers? She didn't know, but if he were no longer there to help her and they were her own abilities, would she be able to control them? Would they remain under control? Would she really know how to use them? Or would her entire world fall apart? She didn't know why she gained those abilities, but she knew she probably didn't have most of them--or at least they probably hadn't been awoken--until she met those two.

The rift between herself and her boss. Everything that had been revealed that night by the lake. They'd both had time to think things over. They'd both been shocked to learn he hadn't moved on. She'd often dreamt while the two of them had gone home. She'd dreamt but she'd never seen him. So learning that he was still wandering this world was both dismaying and elating. He hadn't moved on, he was still trapped here. He was still here, she saw his smile again... and she could call him by name for the first time...

The door to the manager's office opened quietly, and a figure dressed all in black came out into the reception area. He glanced about the room, quickly spotting his employee asleep at her desk. It was common for her to fall asleep, especially while on the job on a case. It was less common to see her fall asleep at the office. He padded over silently to where she slept, and as he reached out a hand to wake her, a lone tear slid down her cheek. He froze and watched as her lips moved silently forming a name.

"......"

Noll glanced at the window. Night had since fallen, and the office lighting turned the windows into mirrors. But there was only himself reflected in the window, no one else. He glanced down once more at the slim figure asleep at her desk and sighed silently. Tears trembled hidden in her lashes. He straightened and went back into his own office, silently closing the door behind him.

He never saw the figure that flashed briefly in the window behind him.



Hmm... I'm not sure about using this style. I like the less definite feel, but since I'm not taking advantage of that indeterminate aspect, it might be a bit wasted and not so great to use here. I wasn't planning on using any names at all originally, but it's a bit unwieldy. ^^;

Comments

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC)
gh//angel

you just came so close to making me cry......

Posted by: Evil Neko of Mischief (sapphire_18)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 06:56 pm (UTC)
pic#59877696

*sniff* *sniff* uhm... *blows nose* im sorry, im such a cry baby... T_T so sad... T-T

Posted by: Simply NANA (toriru4ever)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 10:21 pm (UTC)

ebilness!!! *pouts -Kokumono* T__T
umm...you've never read or seen romeo & juliet??????
*my most favorite version movie wise is the 1968 Franco Zifarelli's production *_*
I am totally loving the anime too...though it's like a role reversal

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:33 pm (UTC)

^^; But I'm also getting much better now. I didn't think about GH for at least a day or two this week and I've been thinking more about Kokumono. ^^;

Sadly, I've never read or seen it. ^^; I'm one of the few people who slipped between the cracks because a number of students had done it in JHS not to mention my HS English teacher didn't seem keen on it. I got to do The Merchant of Venice instead in all its controversial goodness. ^^; (I will admit, I did do Macbeth and Hamlet (Hamlet, omelette, what's the difference?).) ^^;;

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:26 am (UTC)
GH - LOL

I didn't think about GH for at least a day or two

*lol* Whaddya want, a cookie? *leaves cookie* ~_^

(Over dinner tonight, I convinced Stuart to try GH. ^_^ Now, I have to make him CDs. :/ This enabler stuff is hard!)

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:52 am (UTC)

:P Cookie! *pounce*

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:12 pm (UTC)

Don't get me started on that play. Of all of Shakespeare's plays, that one is my least favorite--I'd say I have a borderline hatred of it, actually.

Don't look at me like however you are. I have justification. Imagine reading Romeo and Julliet in seventh grade English, eighth grade English, and freshman high school English. I was ever so happy when we worked on Julius Caesar in sophomore high school English.

Over all, MacBeth is my favorite work by Shakespeare.

Posted by: Simply NANA (toriru4ever)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:40 pm (UTC)

awww I like R&J but it's not my absolute favorite Shakesperian play. That would be The Merchant of Venice :)

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 05:31 am (UTC)

I haven't read that one yet. I should. Hmmm... *goes hunting for Shakespeare book*

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 04:55 pm (UTC)

*laughs* Weren't you supposed to be reading your history text? :P

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 23rd, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)

But it's so boring! The author can't make a point in less than 100 pages. @_@ I'd rather read Shakespeare.

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC)
Saya & Train

so touching... yet... it shatters this naru x mai fan girl here.. haha.. but it was a nice one... :) liked it ^.^

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:36 pm (UTC)

^^;; Hmm... I'm a Naru x Mai fan myself, but for some reason big brother managed to sneak in here. Hmmm... I might use the alt ending I'd thought of later in (at the end of?) the current SS. It seemed a bit too Naru x Mai for the current time frame so I decided against it. Not yet at least. ^^;

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:59 pm (UTC)
gh//dream//naru

I still ship Naru x Mai even though Im a huge genefangirl ^^

Also you wrote that both Mai and Noll were shocked to learn he hadnt passed on...which has been talked about before. Is that shown in the White Heart novels? I think you said we see Mai see reaction to Gene but do we see Noll's? Or do they discuss it?

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:20 am (UTC)

Hmm... well, in that sense, I'm probably swinging a bit more towards the CD drama in terms of reaction. Naru didn't exactly have much opportunity to anything other than deal with Hirota after Mai's scream. Poor everyone on that investigation. ^^; By the time we do get his reaction, he's more annoyed with Gene. But that's likely many, many minutes later.

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:08 am (UTC)
gh//naru//staring

Ah souka...I havent listened to cd 4 in a while (not that I understand it) so Id have to listen to hear Noll's tone again.

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:34 am (UTC)

well gambatte ne? :) looking forward to your continuation ^.^

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:27 am (UTC)
I love to romp!

I could be convinced to be a NaruxMai fangirl, but I'd first need to believe that she got over Gene, and that he accepts that she got over Gene. Then I could be a very happy NaruxMai fangirl. ^_^

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:36 am (UTC)
Naru & Mai

:P i have to second you on that :) they both need to get over gene before anything can blossom ^.^

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:02 am (UTC)
gh//naru//blue

yeah I agree with that too, Im hoping she did, whether it was with Noll or not

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:31 am (UTC)

*laughs* There are some interesting FFs I've read where Mai tells Naru she likes him and he either says something like "I don't believe you" or asks if she's getting him mixed up with someone again. ^^;

The thing I want to know is how come Gene and Naru still look alike in that last case. Over two years have passed since he died but they still look and sound alike. That's something that has me intrigued. ^^;

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:10 am (UTC)

I remember LKK saying something about that when she was researching her essay, someone on one of the comms or maybe here, asked if Gene was still 15. I say its just the novelist idea to make them look alike for as long as possible since its a huge secret to the novel XD

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 03:28 pm (UTC)

Yeahhhh, except this is in the final novels in White Heart. The spoilers are revealed in passing during the course of the story so there's no longer any need to force the similarity issue to that degree anymore. That's why it's a bit weird. >.> Oh well, makes for interesting speculative fic. ^_^

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:21 am (UTC)
GH - wise enough

ack! *snifl* So sad.

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:45 am (UTC)
Styles?

I take it you don't like using the introspective style of writing?

You did very nicely though. I thought this piece was very interesting.

Looking forward to more Ghost Hunt fic updates, including your titleless romping puppy.

*leaves a tray of cookies and tea* Enjoy!

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:06 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

Umm, not quite. When I originally wrote this, I used names in three places: identifying Mai, mentioning the Agawa case, and naming Gene once. It made for a bit of work keeping Gene and Noll distinct therefore. The effects of not using names like that was interesting, but a bit weird to write. ^^;

I later edited this to keep to that style more in the earlier parts and using names more later, so it doesn't really show (not to mention this thing is quite short too). Oh well. *shrug* ^^;

Yay! Cookies and tea! ^^;

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 03:34 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

I still say you did just fine. Stop worrying. ^_^

How many pages is this? I think the shortest chapter I've ever written for any story was eight pages.

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 04:04 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

...This thing's really short. Maybe not even 1.5 pages. I've seen such short one-shots on J sites before, but I don't think I've ever written anything so short before. I'm usually quite wordy, so this would be along the lines of what I'd write for a prologue more than anything else. ^^;

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 05:54 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

And me with eight pages is short. I've just realized I'm a freak. ^_^ Oh, well. *totters off*

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?

I guess whatever length works, works. ^_^ I have to admit, I've been getting a bit curious lately about drabbles. I sometimes see the word on my f-list and the concept's rather interesting. Only 100 words?? But that's probably for another day/year/century. :P

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 04:53 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?

Yeah, drabbles are an odd concept. I can't do drabbles because of the word restriction >.< I'm not even sure what I'd write for one. But on ff.net, in the Ghost Hunt there is one author Azamiko who has a series of drabbles and they're pretty cute.

I just don't know how she does it. ^_^

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 10:15 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?

That's why I want to try them. ^_^ It's a different approach to writing which I think could prove interesting and challenging. ^_^ The other thing I've sometimes looked at are the topic challenges, but they tend to be long lists and scare me a bit. ^^;

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 11:17 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?

I wish you luck. ^_^ Maybe you can give me tips on how to write them. My mind doesn't seem to go for drabble-esque. I even had trouble with them in my creative writing class. 200 words to write about a character @_@ What?! It was worse than impromptu poems.

I know in the shibuya_pr comm o_pessimist posted a Naru/Mai challenge fic with an unlimited time, if you're ever interested.

I don't work well with long topic lists myself-- they're little better than prompts and I've never worked well with those. It's like: you want how many of these in just one story? Or one story to pick from these... oy... >.

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 02:56 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?

Believe me when I say I know your pain when it comes to keeping things down. The worst papers in uni were the ones that had max. pages limits on them. >.>

I know in the shibuya_pr comm o_pessimist posted a Naru/Mai challenge fic with an unlimited time, if you're ever interested.

*glare* I'd read that thing when it was first posted and a minor idea did come to mind, but now that I look again, the idea's grown roots. >.<; I'll give it a try and hack things out later. I've got a pretty simple idea for a one-shot for it. ^_^

*laughs* That's a bit of a problem, isn't it? But when you have 50 or 100 topics, that's a huge amount to write. >.> I found a site with a lot of topic lists that only have 10 items on the lists. One of those might be doable. We'll see. ^_^

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:08 pm (UTC)
Re: Styles?
Naru-- Ghost hunt

I should be reading my history book-- but it's a history book and it's boring; I'd rather not. XD

I agree-- maximum required pages make me want to tear my hair out. Former term paper, 5-8 pages, unless one's an honor student: 10-12.

Eep! *hides from the glare* Sorry! Sorry! It was just a thought I'd let you know, I swear! ^_^ I told her I'd probably contribute a one-shot myself ^_^; I'm not about to start yet another multi-chapter fic with three to work on-- when I can do a one-shot instead. I wonder what the prize is... ^_^ Shameless of me.

OOO! That site's a novelty. Can I see?

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 12:17 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

*laughs*

http://box.usamimi.info/

It's all in Japanese though. ^^; The long list on the left are the different types of q's. I'm thinking of the "more than friends less than sweethearts" group of 10 topics.

1 ヌルい関係 lukewarm relationship
2 起きてよ wake up already
3 花占い flower fortune (s/he loves me, s/he loves me not?)
4 あの人だれ? who is that person?
5 間接キス second-hand kiss
6 わだかまり lurking resentment/darkness
7 密着 stuck/glued
8 爆弾発言 bombshell statement
9 ホントの気持ち true feeling
10 ふたりの未来 the two's future

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 02:32 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?
Naru-- Ghost hunt

...I could work with those actually. Interesting. They might actually fuel that one shot.

...second-hand kiss? Alice19th anyone? Oh, wait, they said indirect kiss. What's a second hand kiss?

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 04:24 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

Same idea. I ran into it translated as second-hand kiss wa~y back maybe with Ranma or KOR so the words stuck in my brain that way. ^^;

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 05:34 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?
Watanuki

Ah, I see. I was like: there's a new kiss going around in fanfiction? Where have I been?

probably trying not to fall asleep reading that stupid history book.. >.>

Posted by: Maddy (spicystirfry)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 04:55 pm (UTC)
your website (shadowdreams)

Hey thanks for all the translations of the fruits basket chapters on your page.... I was dying to know what was going to happen

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