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GH FF--Dreaming of You

April 19th, 2007 (12:00 pm)
melancholy
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current mood: melancholy

*blink* How is it that after working on Kokumono and reading some of Romeo and Juliet (I have to be one of the minority that has never read this work--my teachers were all "you'll do this in HS / you'll have done this in JHS, so we'll do *** instead") until late at night, *this* is what comes to mind first thing in the morning as I wake up?? The really sad thing is that my memory's not so strong so as to be able to write things exactly as they were when they came to mind first thing by the time I actually sit down in front of my computer. >.> I admit, I prefer the version that came to mind as I woke up this morning. It was a bit longer and had more details, more little bits I wanted to add, but that version and the cohesion it had is lost in the mist. >.>

Oh, do I need to mention that this is post-novels and contains spoilers? Everything I've ever written has been that way so far. This would be the prequel to what's currently being written. ^^;



With the summer heat slowly letting up, the people of Tokyo were enjoying the milder temperatures that the end of summer and early autumn brought. And along with the more moderate heat, the milder humidity made evenings much more pleasant and enjoyable.

Shibuya ward's Dogensaka. Often, young people go to Shibuya to hang out and enjoy the shopping, but compared to weekends, school nights are much less crowded and easier to deal with. However, inside one second floor Shibuya office, a young lady sat sleeping at her desk. No one else was out in the reception area, and the office itself was utterly silent. The office only recently re-opened after the latest case had been solved, a case the girl--Taniyama Mai--had found to be much more emotionally difficult than expected.

Ever since her boss had come back, she couldn't help feeling like there was a little more distance lying between them compared to before. Perhaps it couldn't be helped. After all, there was everything she'd said at the lakeside. But then, she hadn't known why he'd been in Japan. She hadn't known who he was looking for. She hadn't seen.

The person in her dreams--the one she fell in love with. The person in reality--the one who showed her great kindness. The one who showed himself openly; the one who hid himself behind thorns. She hadn't seen either of them for who they really were. But then, she hadn't even realised they were two different people... until she was finally forced to confess the truth about her dreams.

Everyone had expected that the discovery of his body in the lake would mean he'd be able to move on from this world--that was the theory. However, when Mai met him once again in her dreams, she learned very differently. He'd always been able to see the way out but couldn't seem to get near it. And even he didn't know why that was the case.

But in seeing him again, she was finally able to call him by his own name and to see his wonderful smile again. She loved that smile. She loved him. And when she thought about it, in many ways he might well be the ideal person to love. So open, loving, and kind... and while there was no hope for anything between them, there was no fear of being rejected either. He'd always helped her, cheered her up, taught her so much... and he smiled for her. He once told her that getting spirits to move on from the world was very easy. But in learning how to do it herself, she realised he must have been an incredibly kind person to be able to say that. And he was dead.

But if he were to go completely, if he were to disappear... In the days following the Agawa case, Mai was forced to face the fact that she couldn't rely on Gene for everything all the time. But she also wondered how much of her ability was truly her own. And how much did she truly control? What if Gene was really keeping her abilities in check and under control? What if they were really Gene's abilities and he was making them seem like hers? She didn't know, but if he were no longer there to help her and they were her own abilities, would she be able to control them? Would they remain under control? Would she really know how to use them? Or would her entire world fall apart? She didn't know why she gained those abilities, but she knew she probably didn't have most of them--or at least they probably hadn't been awoken--until she met those two.

The rift between herself and her boss. Everything that had been revealed that night by the lake. They'd both had time to think things over. They'd both been shocked to learn he hadn't moved on. She'd often dreamt while the two of them had gone home. She'd dreamt but she'd never seen him. So learning that he was still wandering this world was both dismaying and elating. He hadn't moved on, he was still trapped here. He was still here, she saw his smile again... and she could call him by name for the first time...

The door to the manager's office opened quietly, and a figure dressed all in black came out into the reception area. He glanced about the room, quickly spotting his employee asleep at her desk. It was common for her to fall asleep, especially while on the job on a case. It was less common to see her fall asleep at the office. He padded over silently to where she slept, and as he reached out a hand to wake her, a lone tear slid down her cheek. He froze and watched as her lips moved silently forming a name.

"......"

Noll glanced at the window. Night had since fallen, and the office lighting turned the windows into mirrors. But there was only himself reflected in the window, no one else. He glanced down once more at the slim figure asleep at her desk and sighed silently. Tears trembled hidden in her lashes. He straightened and went back into his own office, silently closing the door behind him.

He never saw the figure that flashed briefly in the window behind him.



Hmm... I'm not sure about using this style. I like the less definite feel, but since I'm not taking advantage of that indeterminate aspect, it might be a bit wasted and not so great to use here. I wasn't planning on using any names at all originally, but it's a bit unwieldy. ^^;

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Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC)
gh//angel

you just came so close to making me cry......

Posted by: Evil Neko of Mischief (sapphire_18)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 06:56 pm (UTC)
pic#59877696

*sniff* *sniff* uhm... *blows nose* im sorry, im such a cry baby... T_T so sad... T-T

Posted by: Simply NANA (toriru4ever)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 10:21 pm (UTC)

ebilness!!! *pouts -Kokumono* T__T
umm...you've never read or seen romeo & juliet??????
*my most favorite version movie wise is the 1968 Franco Zifarelli's production *_*
I am totally loving the anime too...though it's like a role reversal

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:33 pm (UTC)

^^; But I'm also getting much better now. I didn't think about GH for at least a day or two this week and I've been thinking more about Kokumono. ^^;

Sadly, I've never read or seen it. ^^; I'm one of the few people who slipped between the cracks because a number of students had done it in JHS not to mention my HS English teacher didn't seem keen on it. I got to do The Merchant of Venice instead in all its controversial goodness. ^^; (I will admit, I did do Macbeth and Hamlet (Hamlet, omelette, what's the difference?).) ^^;;

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:26 am (UTC)

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:52 am (UTC)

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:12 pm (UTC)

Don't get me started on that play. Of all of Shakespeare's plays, that one is my least favorite--I'd say I have a borderline hatred of it, actually.

Don't look at me like however you are. I have justification. Imagine reading Romeo and Julliet in seventh grade English, eighth grade English, and freshman high school English. I was ever so happy when we worked on Julius Caesar in sophomore high school English.

Over all, MacBeth is my favorite work by Shakespeare.

Posted by: Simply NANA (toriru4ever)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:40 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 05:31 am (UTC)

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 04:55 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 23rd, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC)
Saya & Train

so touching... yet... it shatters this naru x mai fan girl here.. haha.. but it was a nice one... :) liked it ^.^

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:36 pm (UTC)

^^;; Hmm... I'm a Naru x Mai fan myself, but for some reason big brother managed to sneak in here. Hmmm... I might use the alt ending I'd thought of later in (at the end of?) the current SS. It seemed a bit too Naru x Mai for the current time frame so I decided against it. Not yet at least. ^^;

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 19th, 2007 11:59 pm (UTC)
gh//dream//naru

I still ship Naru x Mai even though Im a huge genefangirl ^^

Also you wrote that both Mai and Noll were shocked to learn he hadnt passed on...which has been talked about before. Is that shown in the White Heart novels? I think you said we see Mai see reaction to Gene but do we see Noll's? Or do they discuss it?

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:20 am (UTC)

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:08 am (UTC)

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:34 am (UTC)

well gambatte ne? :) looking forward to your continuation ^.^

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:27 am (UTC)
I love to romp!

I could be convinced to be a NaruxMai fangirl, but I'd first need to believe that she got over Gene, and that he accepts that she got over Gene. Then I could be a very happy NaruxMai fangirl. ^_^

Posted by: サヤカ (sayaka86)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:36 am (UTC)

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:02 am (UTC)

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:31 am (UTC)

Posted by: yamikakyuu (yamikakyuu)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:10 am (UTC)

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 03:28 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Too cute for evil (ginny_t)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 12:21 am (UTC)
GH - wise enough

ack! *snifl* So sad.

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 01:45 am (UTC)
Styles?

I take it you don't like using the introspective style of writing?

You did very nicely though. I thought this piece was very interesting.

Looking forward to more Ghost Hunt fic updates, including your titleless romping puppy.

*leaves a tray of cookies and tea* Enjoy!

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 02:06 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

Umm, not quite. When I originally wrote this, I used names in three places: identifying Mai, mentioning the Agawa case, and naming Gene once. It made for a bit of work keeping Gene and Noll distinct therefore. The effects of not using names like that was interesting, but a bit weird to write. ^^;

I later edited this to keep to that style more in the earlier parts and using names more later, so it doesn't really show (not to mention this thing is quite short too). Oh well. *shrug* ^^;

Yay! Cookies and tea! ^^;

Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 03:34 am (UTC)
Re: Styles?

I still say you did just fine. Stop worrying. ^_^

How many pages is this? I think the shortest chapter I've ever written for any story was eight pages.

Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 04:04 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 05:54 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 04:53 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 10:15 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 20th, 2007 11:17 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 02:56 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 11:08 pm (UTC)
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Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 12:17 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 02:32 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Shadow (kagedreams)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 04:24 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Kakurenbo (akinarei)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2007 05:34 am (UTC)
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Posted by: Maddy (spicystirfry)
Posted at: April 21st, 2007 04:55 pm (UTC)
your website (shadowdreams)

Hey thanks for all the translations of the fruits basket chapters on your page.... I was dying to know what was going to happen

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